Life is .....

Life has so many ups and downs.  I would love to be the person in life that never has anything bad happen to them nor has to worry about disappointments.  As it seems like when stuff is going great for me I some how mess things up.  This week I have disappointed myself as well as my family.  That is the worst when your parents are not speaking to you.  I sometimes wish life had a rewind button where we could choose one thing out of the week we could change.  That would be so amazing. I know that everyone says ...everything happens for a reason, but wow does this stuff come at the worst times.  I feel that once I make it out of this dark whole I have dug myself in I will be a stronger person.  But right now things do not look good for my future.  I have worked so hard at my future.  My main thing right now is staying positive and thinking only good thoughts.  I know non of this makes sense to anyone but me.  This is just a way for me to vent my frustrations out without taking them out on someone else.