Blog Reflection !!!!

At first when Ms. A told us we were going to have to do a blog.  I was kind of upset thinking to myself.  I am not a good writer and now I am going to have to share with my classmates and allow them to see my weakness in English.  Now I know that I had difficulties trying to get use to the site by posting blogs and responding to people.  But once I got use to everything.  I really enjoyed this assignment.  I am even thinking about starting a different blog and expanding on this idea.  Maybe a relationship blog or something that interest me.  I honestly think this has been great therapy for me too.  Sometimes I think people bottle up there feelings and never release that frustration.  I was able to do that with this blog.   I also think that it has made me a better writer and my thoughts flow more easily since starting this blog.  Yes, at first it was hard for me to remember to blog everyday but once I got into the groove of things, this was probably one of my best assignments I have had.  I would have never even attempted a blog if it wasn't for Ms. A.  So I do think that keeping this project going for me will help me for the future.  I know this summer went by fast when you cram sixteen weeks into eight weeks.  But this was a great way for me to expand my writing and be more confident in how I write.  I hope you guys still follow my blog.  The name might change but it will be very interesting for the rest of the year.

Taylor's Gift!!!!

So today watching the Ellen Show.  There was a story on there that touched my heart.  It was about a girl that was thirteen years old and on Spring Break last year she passed in a skiing accident.  Her mother was on the show talking about how they donated her organs and how they have met 3 out of 5 recipients.  I was very moved by this story because this thirteen year old made a decision so young in life that got me thinking.  Yes I agree to being an organ donor when I go to the DMV and get a new drivers license each time.  But the mother was saying just because you agree to that does not mean that you will be an organ donor.  There is a website www.taylorsgift.org.  You than register with the state you live in to become a national organ donor and than it is on record that you can choose whether or not your organs go to a donor or research.  I am happy to say that I am now a national organ donor.  I choose the one that is a organ donor and whatever doesn't not match the people will go to research.  Now I am 34 years old and just now becoming a donor I believe there was a reason for me to turn on the TV this morning and hear this young girls story.  She is a true hero.  She saved a man's life that had been on dailies for 40 years by giving her kidney to him.  I truly think everyone has a purpose in life.  Yes, she was way too young to loose her life, but at least this young girl expressed her opinion to help others to her parents.  My heart goes out to her family and think they are just wonderful kind people.  They know some where in the world there daughter lives on.

Blogs!!!

So at first when I heard that we were going to have to start a blog,  I was kind of scared because I had never really even thought about a blog.  I have always been very private and not wanting to share with the Internet world everything that is going on in my life.  Now after we have been doing this for the last month I have come to really enjoy blogging.   I honestly have been thinking about starting a relationship blog or something fun to keep my writing going.  Yes I know that I am not the best writer in the world.  If that was the case I would be writing novels and making tons of money.  But I have been in relationships and have pretty much have gone through the bad and the good with men.  That I have some great advice to share with the world.  I realize now that I am not the only one that goes through hard times with guys.  Someone in the world is going through the exact same thing.  I recently watched Julia & Julie and got inspired that this girl decided to start a blog just because she was not sure where her life was going.  She was in a standstill in life.  She never realized how many people she was helping by starting this blog.   If I could just help one person with my experiences that would be worth it.  Just an idea. 

My Life!!!

Life is funny.  If someone would have told me I would be going back to school and pursuing a career in Nursing two years ago I would have laughed in there face.  I went to college when I was eighteen, but like most kids my age.  Having too much freedom made me travel down a path I wish I could change.  I only last one year in school before leaving the college.  I always told myself I just wasn't smart enough to make it through school.  Really I just never applied myself and focused on what was important.  I thought parting and socializing with friends was more important.  In the back of my head I though oh I will find my future husband get married and I wouldn't have to worry about school.  Oh was I so wrong.

I now am so proud of myself I went back to school last fall.  After being out of school for fifteen years I scheduled my classes.  I took Anatomy and Physiology.  Now I did not have any help with my school schedule.  That is one thing I would tell OTC to change.  I think that as a new student coming in they should sit down with a counselor and plan there school schedule.  Fall was very hard for me to get back into the school routine.  I was scared and doubted myself.  One day I called my ex boyfriend and told him I couldn't do this and thought about quiting.  He than told me to stop crying about it and just do it.  He wasn't so nice about it but that is what I needed at that time.  I think I was listening to everyone else when I would tell them I was in A&P.  They would tell me that is how the weed out the stupid people.

So I stopped listening to everyone and focused on my school.  I have never been so happy before with my life.  I ended up with a B in the class.  Yes I really wanted an A but after talking to my counselor the second semester she was shocked that I made a B from being out of school for that long.  I look at things differently now.  I want A's in all my classes and want to do my best.  If I could have just applied myself back than like I am no.  Life is just so crazy sometimes.

My Friends !!!!

I have never really tought about how wonderful my friends are.  I remember back when I was in High School my mom told me that the friends that I had then would probably not be in my life when I got older.  I never really thought about it.  I just thought she was crazy and these people would be there forever and I wasn't going anywhere so why wouldn't they be. 

A year later I found out my dad was being transferred in his job from Joplin to Springfield to run the main company.  This was the end of my Junior year of high school.  I had just made the Cheerleading squad and had became captain.  I was devastated that I would be spending my Senior year with people I didn't even know.  Well my mom made some huge sacrifices.  See my Popo aka. grandpa was very ill and she couldn't leave him because she was the closest child he had living near. 

So my parents sat me down and we came to an agreement that after selling there home in Joplin that they would rent a place and my mom would stay with me through the week and travel to Springfield on the weekends with my father.   So helping out my parents I decided to graduate school at the end of the semester and start college early.   It actually made since because I was very close to the class that graduated before me. 

So off to Springfield I went in December.  I enrolled in school at Southwest Missouri State University.  I took my general education class and I was going to Psychology.  I wasn't even 18 yet but sat down next to this guy named Ryan Climer.  He was a very nice looking guy.  Later we ended up having a project and we decided to be partners.  He came over to my house and asked me if I had a boyfriend.  I said no and he replied so I have a chance.   I never will forget that and neither will he.  We have been friends since than he is now married to one of my best friends Angela and have two wonderful boys and a little girl on the way.  My mom was right I do keep in contact with some of my old friends from back home but it is crazy how one life changing decision will bring you someone that will be in my life forever.

Stressed!!!!

So with Finals week approaching.  I really am feeling the stress today.  I am taking two classes this summer.  CIS 101 and Eng 101.  Looking at everything I have to do this week has just increased my stress level from 10 to 50.  I am panicking because I keep thinking when do I have the time to get everything finished.  Maybe it's just me but wow I am on overload right now.  I am really looking forward to July 28th.   Than I start to think about next semester starting up so quick and I get stressed even more.  I guess I just need to take everything day by day and maybe that will be easier.  I really hope everything works out well for me.

The Sun will Shine Again!!!!

So today was not a great day for me.   I happened to look on my ex's Facebook page and found out the girl he is dating are now in a relationship.  I don't understand people sometimes.  How can people say they miss you and than not even two weeks later be in a relationship with someone else.  I feel like I have wasted some great years on him that I can never get back.  I thought he was my one true love.  He obviously didn't feel the same way about me.  I think he wants me on the back burner.  Doesn't want me to have anyone but wants to play around with everyone.  So going forward I decided that this person shouldn't be in my life.  I have blocked him from my phone and closed my Facebook account.  All I can do is put one foot in front of the other and move on with my life.  I can't allow this person to effect my life anymore.  I am a good person and deserve a good guy that can see that.  I can't wait around hoping that he will change or even grow up.  People only change when they want to.   Maybe now I realize we were from two different worlds and I wanted different things.  It's time for the sun to come back out and shine on me for awhile.  Hoping for the best and trying to stay positive.  God has a plan for everything right?